Documentation can compromise, in some ways, what Bakhtin called the “once-occurrent event of Being.” It alters our sense of once-occurrence. I won’t say pervert— that makes perversion sound like a bad thing. For better or worse, it can however flatten, rigidify, overly align and distort the Bold Moment; handing over the timespan, blip, and slippery minutes to something outside of it that is too fixed; to an audience that is not as here, in the complexity of the circumstance, able to sweat and fully share in the loss, wager, and gain. And risk— having a stake in things— is essential.
At the same time, we know that record, capture, and documentation can greatly aid in our meaning-making. Necessary for surmisal, reflection, extrapolation, and the whole poetics of being. Even the imagined presumption of infinite repetition gives our silliest actions a weightiness. Just think of the Eternal Return. We can work ourselves into a programme of invisibility, and chase after a form of bare life— this is one possible programme— but for me, it goes against my striving for what D.T. Suzuki called the “unification of expression and experience.” That is, as meaning-making, as Life-Narrativizing, as expressive experience, I’m after something dialogical, communicative, and memorial— even if only unto the Lord, as it were. Just as when Pierre Schaeffer says of music that it is “made to be heard,” zigmatics is for me greatly communicative.
Photography is the classic case. While photography is very often transformative— in aiding and supplementing the eye, in bending social space around it, in desire-production, meaning-making, metaphorizing life-as-tableaux/vision-as-frame— some moments will be over-reduced by the camera. We often want them reduced, to trim the excess circumstance from the final image. But even unintentionally, something escapes— no, most of it escapes.
The unseen, the uncapturable— not in a metaphysical sense but in a common sense— are demoted for their inability to enter the symbolic economy. Likewise, when the photographic dynamic becomes overly dominant, we clearly see how the camera captures, not its object, but the scenario of photography itself. And the non-photographic moment escapes. Can we live with the unlasting? With the once-occurrent? What is the best way to approach Record and Memory? To spy, even on ourselves.
One method would be the model of fieldwork and fieldnotes, in anthropology. Only fieldwork in the “field” of everyday life, where all the field/object/participant/observer distinctions have caved in on one another in an interesting way. Ideally, we could avoid the indulgences of the “confessional” mode in two ways. One, by a partial dissolving of the subject into the field, but partially enough so that the subject/observer/participant is not, by itself, the object. Two, by a constant struggle towards a truthfulness and an incorporation of other perspectives, where possible. Fieldwork even suggests an aesthetic— an aesthetic in which the slippage between record and event is obvious, and finality is the least of our worries.
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